Could it be?

I made a lot of excuses. I delayed and laxed tons of time. I did all that in purpose just so they will not pick me anymore. But still, they did. Still, they trust me. Still, they have faith in me. Still, they chose me even if tonight’s meeting is the first meeting I have ever attended for 6 months. Yes, 6 months!

Could it be that God is leading me here? Could it be that this is where he truly wants me now? Could it be a calling? But, I am soooo scared, terrified to the umpteenth power. Lord, please, I can’t…