My first week

Just some random thoughts from my first week:

God has been very good to me that He gave me super nice companions during the two and a half day orientation seminar. I never had to eat alone or wander the crowd alone. Plus I was able to find a lot of common denominators with them,saya lang talaga.

Working makes me very oblivious. My boss shuts my pc screen just so I stop working when it is in fact already lunchtime.

I hate it when people cancel out on me on the last minute. I hate it when they don’t stick with their commitment because I went out of my way just to accommodate it. I hate it when I break my own commitments. That is why when she got furious; I really was left stunned. My bad.

Working is going to be a lengthy learning experience. But it brings me super satisfaction when I figure things out. I am actually beginning to love SAS. Lord, may I not lose that passion.

I am again thankful to have a super nice boss. She is very patient with me but she is very busy as well that self-study is but necessary.

LEAVING IT BEHIND

I’m leaving yesterday behind and finally I’ve made up my mind to let the memory stay away and think about today. I’m leaving yesterday behind ‘cause now I’ll try to live my life once more the way I did before.

This time, I am confident and certain and now, I am putting my entire mind into it.

To any I have hurt in the past, I am really sorry and may we all start with a clean slate.

Realization?

Saw IF ONLY yesterday. There was one question raised there that went something like this: “If you know this would be you’re last day? How would you spend it?”

That question got me thinking. I thought that I would like to die wrapped around the arms of the man I love and who appreciates and loves me just as much. MUSHY! I don’t know if I was just taken by the film but that is really how I would respond now. That is how I picture me dying – in the arms of the man I love.

Random Messages

For You:
I truly appreciate what you have shared to me. It was indeed an eye-opener that I really wasn’t ready for. Anyway, I believe that ‘that truth’ must remain hidden. Hehe. He is out of your life now. He may not be worlds apart but you’re world doesn’t cross much now. Dahlin, just forgive and try very hard to forget. I mean, I know that what he has done is unjustifiable and unwarrantable but vengeance is not yours. Really? I’m sure that spreading the truth may not give you exactly the peace of mind you’re looking for. But if he bugs you again, I will be in a haste to defend you. Ako mismo magkakalat! Haha!

For You:
You told me you loved me and I just blew it?! No, dahlin. I loved you and you blew it. You had my heart in your hands but I never exactly remember ever touching yours. We can never much agree on whose fault was it. But I know, it takes two to tango. Quoting from a song: “Say goodbye. Apart we’ll make another try” God bless!

For You:
You love him even if you try so hard to deny it. I have seen both sides and you know what I wanna tell you, “SAGUTIN MO NA” because honestly, that is the only way you can preserve yourself. Otherwise, layuan mo na. As in!

I am scared...

In less than a week, a new beginning would start.
In less than a week, it would be the start of a lifetime of waking up really early.
In less than a week, I’d start dressing up in a who-knows-what-kind-of-attire but probably end up looking really yuppie.
In less than a week, I’d have to find my way in and out of Paseo de Roxas.
In less than a week, I’d be part of another new world.
In less than a week I’d be introduced to my co-workers, to my superiors, to my employers.
Yes, in less than a week, I will be part of the employed sector.

I know I have prayed and waited for a job with the perfect fit.
I believe God lead me back to my first real love.
But now, I'm just scared...

I’d have to start resolving my insomnia by then.
I’d have to be familiar with SAS by then.
I’d have to be really good with data steps by then.
I’d have to own a new set of wardrobe to suit the atmosphere.
I’d have to fix all my pre-employment requirements.
Lord, I don’t feel prepared for this yet. I know I have been technically ‘idle’ for months but I’m truly petrified. Lord, please give me whatever I need as I embark another journey in my life. I really don’t feel equipped enough for the tough world. Lord!!!!!!

Thank you for the gift of friendship.

Tonight, I went outside my comfort zone but God was faithful. He showed me that leaving my comfort zone, the gift of friendship still exists.

Went to attend a household, which doubled to supporting another cluster’s parish involvement. I went with my dearest partner, Alex. Thank God for giving me Alex. Thank God that amidst the new, fresh and spanking crowd, there is a person I know I can run to in times of unsolicited moments.

It was the territory of our former cluster, so supposedly there would be many familiar faces. Apparently, they are suffering the same fate as B9s. But thank God for the gift of amity. There were still familiar and friendly faces around. And the most mention-worthy would be AJ, he approached us, gave us his number, implored for a get-together bash and really stayed for a chitchat. Sweet AJ! And yes, he resembles one of my fave vocalists – BAMBOO.

I also would like to give thanks for the gift of camaraderie. The crowd tonight was really a new crowd. But the game went smoothly and slickly. The leaders of both youth orgs were truly amiable and welcoming. One of the leaders was Ate Lyra, a Sacreian as well.

Thank you for the gift of friendship. Attending the upper household is truly out of my comfort zone. However, there are but very pleasant and jovial members and leaders that made staying favorable. Special mention to Dianne, I can feel your warm welcome. Dahlin, thank you.

I thank God that though Mara and I have been worlds apart, Justine Miguel keeps us connected. Yes, she made me a godmother to her son. I was truly touched by the act. Last 12th of July, he celebrated his first birthday. Later, he would host his party. Unfortunately, being the busy ninang that I am, I cannot attend. I though, managed to pass by this evening to drop off my gift. Hay, may I be a good godmother to you.

PS. I also want to thank Lord for sending me Wendell. He has been one hell of a help through my college and would still be very much available to offer assistance u to now. Thank you for giving me a call this afternoon. The long talk helped me a lot. I miss the company we shared and the friendship we have developed.

Jinx?

UP MAROONS won yesterday against the DLSU Archers. Yahoo!!! Hail UP! It was the only team they did not beat last season, last season wherein I was still an undergraduate in UP. My kuya remarked, “Sabi ko na, ikaw malas sa UP e.”

Last acad year’s intramurals STAT had a winning streak until I watched a game. Yes, it was the first game I ever came to see how the broadcasted skilled Stat varsity plays. It was the first time I came after having been menaced that my absence in the court was making them win. I almost burst into tears when the buzzer-beater shot went through the net. I really felt like I was the jinx. I immediately invited my companions to leave the court before the player who was pestering me for being a jinx even sees me. Haay…

My family has been going through a lot of trials. And by a lot, I mean A LOT. Someone said that the placing of our gate maybe causing it. Like duh?! The gate has been situated like that since highschool! This is all soooo superstitions!

I had a conversation with Tutay last Tuesday. I can’t remember exactly what it was about but I clearly recall her calling me ‘malas’. She was joking but jokes are half meant. Yikes!

I swear! I have no birthmark in my ass. Well, not that having a birthmark there really makes one a jinx.

CONGRATS!!!

Congratulations to the new RNDs!!! Cheers to Ate Chada and Kuya Bai! Congrats Congrats!

And to UP who got a 100% passing rate for the latest RND board exam!!!

Also, congrats to my beloved friend, Steph. You are now a registered nurse! Congrats!
Hugz to all of you!

Naku, had no plans of making an entry soon pa naman haha!
But since tp tagged me…

three names you go by:
1. rose ann
2. roan
3. ate?

three screen names you have had:
1.roanblink
2.wildflower
3.godes5

three physical things you like about yourself:
1. hair
2. eyes
3. lips?

three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. height
2. teeth
3. eyebags

three parts of your heritage:
1. proud to be a Filipino
2. my great grandfather is Spanish, hehe, pinilit
3. Pinoy uli

three things that scare you:
1. losing someone I hold dear to my heart
2. flying cockroach
3. being a big disappointment

three of your everyday essentials:
1. Companion
2. Rosary
3. Money

three of your favorite musical artists:
1. Lea Salonga
2. South Border
3. Bamboo


three of your favorite songs
1. Angel by Sarah Machlachlan
2. Someone to watch over me
3. Someone’s waiting to love you

three things you want in a relationship:
1. Commitment
2. sensitivity
3. comfy Tête-à-tête

three lies and truths in no particular order:
lies:
1. I’m a RK
2. The Philippines... Filipinos are poor.
3. It's easy to let go and let God.

truth:
1. Smile is the cheapest make-up.
2. I'd WANT to get married.
3. People TEND to take for granted what they have.

three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. Height
2. I have a thing for dreadlocks and shaved heads
3. biceps

three of your favorite hobbies:
1. Splurging
2. Internet
3. SLEEPING

three things you want to do really badly now:
1. enroll in a gym
2. dye my hair
3. acquire a driver’s license

three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. Market Researcher
2. Stat/Math related ang nature of work na least priority ang SAS at sana hindi itatago lang ang beauty ko sa likod ng computer, haha!
3. be employed in a bank/finance

three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Paris
2. New York
3. Amanpulo

three kid's names you like:
1. Iñigo Raphael and yet to discover ‘spanish’ names
2. Joaquin
3. Max

three things you want to do before you die:
1. see the world!
2. pamper my family
3. kiss a person I love

three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. not! too feminine
2. nah! too poised
3. hay, too girly

three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. twice maligo; matagal pa at that
2. malaki magpack for travel
3. finesse

three celeb crushes:
1. Hayden Christensen
2. Mark Nelson
3. Echo

my turn to tag...

three people that i would like to see take this quiz:
1. Mona
2. Mia Mae
3. Marielle

Guys Like That You're Sensitive And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships! What Do Guys Like About You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Haay, I do get close quickly in relationships.

Men See You As Choosy Men notice you light years before you notice them You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait How Do Men See You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

I am DEFINITELY NOT looking for a quick flirt not even a dawdling one. Hehe. And I firmly believe that I am worth the wait. A rare specie worth waiting for.

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Got this message:
Bakit ba ang dali para sayo igive up ang isang taong who, for once in your life, made you special?

I may have deserve this. Oh well. Hay, if I’m giving an impression that turning down someone is easy, then I am staging a wrong one. It maybe selfishness but I can only hurt so much. A relationship with man who can’t give me security is as good as over.

The Challenge

Since this afternoon, I spent most of my time texting and calling SB9s to invite them for tomorrow’s Sector Assembly. I feel that my effort would have extended more. I feel that I would have taken more steps in inviting people. But anyway, I’m glad many were excited and were enthused.

Unfortunately, there was one conversation that disheartened me. This girl was busy with school load so she could not make it tom. I told her that it would just call her next time to inform her for the next activities. I said I’d be hoping she would come. She answered me with a blatant, “DON’T COUNT ON IT”

Haay…I know that He does not ask me to just bring members to activities but to Him. But I was disheartened because I know that she still doesn’t accept Him as her personal saviour. This is a challenge and I’m praying for more courage because it was really off-putting.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LOUISA!

Just as I was making this post, a very dear friend called my cellphone. I was truly touched by the deed. It was her birthday, but still she was the one who gave me a ring. A truly sweet girl who would never abandon or desert you.… I’m glad she is very well taken care of now. I’m glad she is happy because this girl deserves to be.

I love and miss you, ice! Mwuah! Mwuah! Mwuah!